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Its me again Ive had to come home. 

Yesterday night was terrible for me! Felt so depressed last night , was in my room listening to depressing music. Also i self harmed again. cuts on my arm. There was tears , lots of tears. I was wondering round the town center alone last night , rang my friend in tears and she came and picked me up with my sister. im home. I don't think i can go back there , this keeps happening. My parents don't want me going back.

I tried to see my doctor today back he is annual leave this week apparently


I cant even get excited about christmas

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So sorry to hear you are feeling down again Chicken. 
Do your parents think that being at Uni is part of your problem?
You say you have friends at Uni, though, and that you would miss them if you weren't there.
It sounds like your 'downward spirals' are difficult to shake off.
I hope you don't get too despairing. No-one said that after you sought help from your counsellor and your doctor, it would all be wine and roses straight away. It will obviously take time. It's a step-by-step process I suppose.
You know you have our support Chicken. 
brisket
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Something else i did last night was write down words of how i felt and stuck them to my walls. Words like worthless , pathetic , stupid etc! My friends saw them aswell , im so ashamed and embarrased
 Don't be Chicken.

 You'll come out of this stronger - mark my words.

 Just get the help.

 And don't drink if you're tempted  
FM
Often (not always) but often, when I felt depressed I too have played sad music in order to continue the mood. I have drifted into pity and inadequate feelings about myself.
I can empathise with someone who would do this.  I tend to think it may be helpful and part of working through the difficulties and getting them out of ones system.
But I wouldn't want to do it repeatedly and endlessly. I feel that might do more harm than good.

But one can feel better after a good cry.
It will be nice when you no longer wish to describe yourself as worthless and pathetic.
(Not sure about 'stupid' - perhaps we're all a bit stupid.  

Absolutely no need for shame or embarrassment.

I'm pleased you will see your doctor again in a few days. Be honest with him.

brisket
Chicken, IMO, you have been very brave.
You were afraid to go to see your doctor - but you did it.
You didn't think you could tell the doctor how bad you were feeling - but you did it.
You were able to confide in your parents, even though you found it difficult.
You arranged to see a counsellor.
You are taking your medication.
That doesn't sound like anything to be ashamed of, it sounds like a young man who has accepted he has problems and is doing his best to get well.
Yogi19

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