Evening Scatts How was your day ? 

Okay thanks Baz - pottered around a lot  How has your day been?

Lucky you How are your mum and Scatletts ? 

My day was long ....but journey wasn't too bad Never want to end up in those places though  

No  I hear you x

Scattlets fine - Mum in a 'difficult mood'

Oh heck Are you due respite this week ? 

No - but I may bring my trip a bit forward

Awww What are you up to tomorrow ? 

Going for a run first thing (it's the actual run next Saturday).  Then ironing, then get stuff ready for school!

What are you up to?

Oooo that's come round quickly  

As little as possible , I hope !  

  Excellent plan!

Bummer about BB last night  

I know - I still can't believe it!  Bliddy Vote To Save - I've never liked it!!

Me neither .....but even with vote to save I never expected it to be Danny ....I thought it would be Chris ....or bliddy Chloe Jasmine!!

Yes - me too!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrr

Evening all (Or good morning by the time you read this)

Sorry I haven't been about all week. The new term, plus drama at home has kept me ridiculously busy. 

A quick(ish) update....

A couple of days after we accepted the Haz thing was gonna be permanent (and bought all the furniture and fittings to kit out the spare room as a bedroom), Haz then decided she was moving down to Bristol to live with her Dad. 

When she told me, it was mixed feelings. Sadness that she would be moving so far away, mixed with relief at the thought at getting my life back to it's relatively quiet normality. I did not realise how much I had been desperately trying to convince myself that taking responsibility for someone else's teenage girl was something I was happy to take on....until the moment I was relieved of it.  I was obviously just trying to make the best of situation that I felt was out of my control. 

Fast forward a few days.... her Dad is picking her up tomorrow afternoon, so tonight I took her and Duds out for a "farewell" meal. When we got home, she started to have a last minute panic and hints that she may change her mind and stay with me after all. She tells her Dad she's not sure, he gets all upset and isn't very understanding of her last minute nerves. I'm all in a panic when I suddenly see my return to normality slipping away. 

So, to cut a veeeeery long story short. I contact her Dad and explain to him how I think she is feeling (emotional and overwhelmed after all the goodbyes to her friends and her younger siblings), and tell him to get his act together and be supportive! I'm truthful with Haz and tell her that I think she needs to give it a go with her Dad. 

Waters are smoothed between her and her Dad (miraculously he responded really well to my instructions and suddenly found his sensitive side). 

As for me and Haz. I have probably upset her a bit, cos now she knows I'm not going to accept her staying here unconditionally. I feel really crappy and very guilty. 

Meanwhile, my sister is at home not giving a crap about what is going on. I went to see her earlier this evening, thinking she may be a bit upset about Haz moving away, and hoping I could convince her to speak to her before she goes, but no, she couldn't care less. 

I have absolutely no doubt that I have done the right thing for me (and for Duds). This next year at work is going to be incredibly busy and very very stressful (for various reasons I won't go into now), and I really need my home to be a calm haven if I'm gonna get through it in one piece. I feel so SO sorry for Haz, and really didn't want to let her down and add to her troubles, but I can't help but feel she has two parents out there, and it's only right that one of them take responsibility for her. 

Sorry for the long and rambling post, just needed to get it out of my system after a very stressful evening. 

Hope you are all well, and I'll try and catch up with you all tomorrow  

I can't abide Chloe ....and Gail is a bit annoying too !

No - she's an odd one alright - I think Gail is not really quite stable enough to be in it it

Very fake

I've got to go Baz - I hope you sleep well tonight - Goodnight all

Hi Ros .How Was your day? It took  me an hour to get back in last nights I missed all the eviction  

OMG-didn't realise-only knew when yogi left a message from you

They have just filmed Antique roadshow at OH'S place

Dame and I got kicked out about 10 ....and couldn't get back  

was surprised when yogi posted -didn't have a clue

Oooooooo.....I always recird them , so ... Is OH in it ? 

You mean you never missed us  

not sure bazzy -probably-he dealt with getting the stuff into the store room and went in last Sunday to get the stuff and talk to two who present it????  tale to tell thereabout getting stuff there

was a weird eviction - can't understand it TBH

Anyway Ros , it's been a long day ....visiting ....so I'm off to bed now . Goodnight , sleep tight