hello Comeade Ogilvy
I do not have a magic wand for you but I can tell you you are not alone and you will keep going because you simply do not know what is round the corner. happiness is a funny thing I find, its often there in ways I was not looking for and often it can be missed.
thinking of you

There's always hope. What's up Comrade?

Happiness? Stop aiming so high.

Aim for contentment ... we can't all be bloody Pollyanna.

And if they way you feel now has a specific cause accept you will be feeling like this for a while. Roll with it until you start to heal. Which you will.

Thank you all for your well meaning replies.


but there is no lemonade to extract from these lemons,


No light at the end of this dark tunnel where pain is all that reaches me.


I am entropy.

Forgive me Comrade if this sounds harsh,.....but are you having us on? Those analogies seem pretty out there...

xx

Awww CO, sometimes we can compare our past to our present and ruin things by doing this..Get out and about, you won't change things by sitting and thinking, do something totally out of the ordinary....

I know you've had a rough old time of it Comrade, some of us have  been through it and came out the other side. Just sometimes it takes a wee while to reach that light  

Trust me stonks when I say I have.


It led me to where I am now..

But as I remember you were looking to hard into things instead of letting them amble on a bit, is it for good?....

  
"Change"  is one of life's biggest certainties Comrade.

Will a  help Comrade?

Hey Comrade, long time no see.



You're obviously not ready to give up yet as you're reaching out here.


It's good to talk old buddy, it relieves the stress a bit.  Have a 

I've no idea what is wrong Comrade but I hope things improve for you soon

Comrade..Learn to enjoy your own company, Think of the things that have & do make you happy when done on your own...I do this when I feel lost in the grander scheme of things! I whack my music on loud & dance around singing at the top of my voice...or I may take a long walk & say hello to everyone I pass..makes me feel good!
Obviously not knowing what is making you feel so miserable it is hard for an outsider to give words of wisdom, but rest assured there is always a light at the end of the tunnel..you just need to strive to get there..DON'T give up!

Hi Comrade, i know you were down a year or so ago, and thought you had got thru it. I can only send you my good wishes

Hi Comrade, a broken heart is not easily mended, I understand. It`s an old cliche but time is a healer. It`s difficult, because time goes so slowly when you`re hurt. Don`t give up..keep going my friend. You can`t see it now but there will eventually be a light at the end of the tunnel. Stay strong.
Much love, you`re in my thoughts. 

Comrade. I don't have much to add to whats been said, but, you are in my thoughts and hopefully you will get over this.You have bounced back in the past, I think you may just do it again.

No, he's genuine, Rawky.
He's having a rotten time of it and it's not turned out how he had hoped.
People can be very cruel and our CO has suffered the brunt of things. 


  Forwards, Comrade.

CO! 

Look, I know you are feeling like something you should scrape off the bottom of your shoe. Don't.

I know how hackneyed it may seem when peeps on a forum reach out to you and how it may seem unreal. Believe me. It isn't... I found a friend here who understands my deepest thoughts. People want to help because we're all human beings here.

You are important, just as we all are... equal and magnificent in our own ways. 

Love that I like that ^ 

So do I - I wish I'd said it

Comrade - what Pam said

Me too.  Great post, Xochi.

Morning CO....Hope you are feeling a bit better today.....X

I don't really know what to say other than thank you to everyone who has replied.


Perhaps it was not right to post here, perhaps it seems like attention seeking... perhaps I was... I feel so desperately lonely. I don't really know what my motive was... what I hoped to achieve but it is done so...


I thought this year I could turn my life around, instead it's just been turned upside down and inside out, It started out well (or so it seemed) I sought out a new life and found one... I felt alive but... it would not last.... it was meant to be forever... pffft.


Ever get the feeling your existence is cursed ?


That all roads lead to ruin ?

Awww Comrade...I'm sorry you are feeling so down.  And if posting helps, even a little bit, then you carry on

No they don't, some can lead on to better things.   

Comrade

I beg to differ...12 months ago..I left my 27 yr marriage behind.....am now in a good job with a place of my own & am happy just to be me!

One never knows what is round the corner Comrade
Keep posting if it gets stuff off your chest!

My dear Comrade,   it's hard to imagine - especially when you are feeling so low - that things may get better.
But you have to believe it. Change is inevitable.  
Nil desperandum!

Never give up x

Comrade, I am sorry you are feeling so low.
If you find it helps to chat on here about things, then keep posting with us.
Nobody will think you are attention-seeking, you are just having a really hard time of it.
Life can be an awful struggle at times, but it can also be full of excitement and happiness.
Never give up hope Comrade.

Comrade , I have been feeling the same as you. I know how it feels. Feel free to PM me if you need to chat

It was right to post here, and people do care...you are not alone . You can PM me anytime if you want to chat, or just to feel you have some company x

Thanks again everyone,


Sorry to hear that Chicken Chow Mein.

Comrade, I don't know what is wrong, but all I can say is that you changed things once, you can do it again. That takes strength and you did it. Did someone let you down? I can also only echo what all the others have said and say you are amongst friends who are always here. I hope you feel a brighter soon.