Hey you lovely lot! I haven't been posting recently because this baby of mine has stolen my gaga time but I have been reading quite often Just thought I'd post here because, well actually because I need somewhere to vent and if I do it my partner he'll try to help and probably make things worse.
So, last weekend my mum had a massive stroke No movement on one side of her body, very little speech, some brain damage, a busted head and a broken foot. She's just gone from this bubbly, loving, caring, easy going Mum to someone who can just about nod, say yes and no and just 'mmm's at us most of the day. She's in hospital now and will be for weeks.
You would think that would be all we'd have to focus on but no, of course the family feuds are already starting and I'm playing peace keeper and piggy in the middle and hating people because they are putting me in that position. If I don't play it though then they will kill each other, my Mum will probably see some of the awkwardness and will worry and I don't want that. So I'm stressed out. I could quite happily run away and hide.
I also had intended to book my holiday next week. It's not til October so my partner had said maybe we shouldn't go but I said no, we're going. Because I think by that time, I might really need a holiday! Am I being selfish going away and leaving my sisters to care for her by themselves?
I feel like a child at the minute. I am the youngest of the family but seem to be the one worrying about how to keep it all together and really just want someone to take over and leave me to just go see Mum and not have to worry about anything else. I know THAT is selfish but at the minute I don't care.
They are showing a programme which is a canal boat navigating a canal with occasional historical information appearing on screen as they go along. The most unusual thing is there is no human voice to be heard, just the sounds of nature.
I HAVE NOTICED THAt my wee pal Mr.Jinks the budgie is not too well lately ,he has been picking at at his feathers etc,now birds feathers grow from a quill sheath usually with no problem,my wee guy seems to have stopped the process.In the last few weeks he has been picking at his back with blood flowing etc.in a small bird this is a major blood loss...Took him to the vet today ,she said he looks like he has a tumour on his lower back..Wahhh! She said if they tried to take a sample,he would have to be knocked out,and with his age etc ,he might not survive the test..So I have him home and will know when his quality of life ain't good.He's eating well etc and flying round..my wee boy is eleven and a half years old..a great age the vet said for a budgie..hang in there wee man.